It won’t matter — A Poem

the blue skies
the bright nights
the warm weather
the cold glamour
it wont matter

the late night talks
the sunset walks
the grin desolate chatter
but, at the epilogue of this chapter
it wont matter

no matter how I try
the end is when I cry

when I'll feel the pain
and with no one else to blame
cause its me who fell for it again,
and now I'm going insane
cause I thought I would be fine
but now I feel shivers down my spine

in the darkness, I needed the light
I got it, but it was too bright
I burned my eyes, just to take it in
to just feel something upon my skin

I'm not that pure at this moment in time
because hurting yourself seems like a crime
another scar upon my soul
now my friend, I am not that whole

now I promise, I wont love ever
because in the end, it wont matter
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